I was unwell when I started writing this blog, very unwell, but getting better. My search for the right help took many years (don’t get me started). There were many closed doors, and many many times when I was sent away with nothing and told to look elsewhere, yet there was no elsewhere.
When it looked as if I had run out of options, someone did finally sit up and take notice and I got the help and support I needed, just in time, I’d say. The rest is history. I’m well and happy and so is IJ. But for a long time the result of not being heard for so long left me feeling I had no voice. That no-one would listen, that I was not worth listening to.
I’d blogged before and given up. But I missed it and I missed the community and the chance blogging gave me to reach out online and connect with others from behind the safety of my computer screen.
So thanks to a little encouragement I decided to start again. My daily wittering, ramblings and ‘scribbles’ were written really for me, as I way of finding out who I was and if I really did have anything to say for myself. I discovered I did. I had plenty to say and amazingly, incredibly and movingly it seemed that people were reading my blog. I gained a sense of being heard, of being listened to.
So I carried on and this blog has developed with me as I’ve regained my health, found a voice, discovered my place in the world and grown-up.
Some would say it’s been a long time coming. I would say at least I got there in the end. And I’m not done yet.
So the confidence now to go out into the world and meet people, to travel overseas and agree to speak at Cybermummy has come from firstly connecting with others online, discovering an amazing community out there, finding that I do have a voice, and then taking that confidence offline and out into the big bad world. Which I have now discovered isn’t so bad after all.
Some people think blogging is simply writing an online diary about your life, or certain aspects of your life.
It is. But it can be a great deal more as well.
That’s why I blog.
Thank you for listening. I owe you a great deal.