That would not be a problem if I did not have my heart set on moving back to the South where I have spent most of my adult life.
I have been considering our options for a while and planning where we can move to when the time is right. I need better access to the job market and somewhere where I feel at home. Of course there are are the usual requirements of good schools and a nice environment to bring up a child.
All these factors will have to be weighed up as part of the decision-making process, but it a process I have to make on my own. Already this has resulted in many sleepless nights.
I had wanted to move back South. I like it there and it is home to many of our good friends. I wasn't looking for anything grand, nothing even remotely extravagant but certainly with transport links to London.
But the reality is that I have been living in a dream world. Such a move simply isn't possible. The North-South property divide is just too great. Returning to the South and living within reach of the type of work that interests me most, is beyond our reach.
And I feel a little grief stricken.
I simply wanted to return to the place I felt at home. We shall just have to make home somewhere else. But adjusting to that fact will take a little time.
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