Change

We're packing up and heading off, although I don't know exactly where and I don't know exactly when. All I do know is that I don't like the weight of uncertainty that is bearing down on my shoulders right now.

The house we have rented for six years is being put on the market, and for good reason. Not immediately but certainly in the immediate future. So it's time to move on and find somewhere new. The time is right for a fresh start and a new home but it’s a daunting prospect nevertheless.

We've built a home here and we'll do the same wherever we go of course, but it feels are if the cards of my life have been thrown up into the air and I have no idea where they will land. What is certain is that when the cards do fall they'll paint a very different landscape to the one we knew before.

But there's an opportunity here amongst all the stress and feelings of being overwhelmed. There’s the chance to make some choices. But choices require decisions to be made and a lot of hard thinking.

So my head is heavy with the weight of responsibility that comes with all this, which is not conducive to clear thinking. But the mist is clearing and ideas are starting to take shape. An air of excitement is definitely present, some of the time.

There is time – plenty of time – to decide what and where is best for the two of us. Nothing has to be decided today, or indeed tomorrow, but decisions do need to be made; and these are massive life changing decisions that will affect all the tomorrows after that, so I need to try and remain focused.

I’ve never wanted to stand still in life, I've always wanted to be moving forward, to be exploring new options and seizing new opportunities.

It would be a little easier if the pace of change were not quite so fast and not quite so overwhelming. But we’ll get through.

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Comments

[jfb57]

Oh goodness scary and exciting all in one! That equals exhausting! It is great to have a new adventure in the new year though & I know you & IJ will have great fun deciding on which house is lucky enough to have you living in it! xx

[susie@newdaynewlesson]

Hugs.

You will see the blessing that this change will be. Try to let go, accept while at the same time preparing.

hugs.

[notsupermum]

Oh wow! Big changes then. Sometimes it's better if things happen quickly, gives you less chance to back down. Good luck, and I want to know ALL of the details xx

[Sandy Calico]

Good luck, Rosie. Life has a way of working out for the best and I'm sure it will work out for you. We made a massive move last year and it turned out to be the right one. The limbo that preceded it was the hardest bit x

[Fran]

Change is always so hard but most of the time it leads to good things because it forces you out of your comfort zone. It can't be easy being uprooted after 6 years of making a place your home, especially when it's not your choice but at least now you can decide where the next step takes you and that at least gets to be driven by you.

I hope it all works out for you and you manage to find a place you feel happy living it and can make it your home. I'm also in the process of finding somewhere new to live (although it is my choice) and it can be incredibly stressful - all of the uncertainty but I'm trying to remain positive!

[michelle twin mum]

Ohh good luck Rosie with all the decisions to be made and moving. It sounds as if 2012 will be an great year for you and IJ.

with love, Mich x

[Iota]

Good luck. Yes, change is both exciting and scary.

[Midlife Singlemum]

What everyone else said :).

[Kate Takes 5]

Try not to let the decision weigh on you too heavily. Easier said than done of course. As Napolean himself said 'There is nothing more difficult and therefore more precious than being able to decide.' Good luck. x

[Rosie Scribble]

Many thanks everyone for all your lovely comments. Rosie xx

[Catherine Cooper]

Good luck Rosie. Change is often good. I'll bet that after a period of adjustment you won't look back....hope it all goes well. x

[Stigmum]

Very very best of luck Rosie and well done on such a positive attitude. Turning someone else's decision into your own is such a good idea and I'm sure will see you through. Keep us posted how you get on xxx

[sarahmumof3]

I was in a very simular situation this time last year Rosie although unfortunately for us there was a sence of urgency and lots of nastiness involved that meant we made maybe a hasty move, but as is always the way it has worked out and for the most part we're happy where we are now I'm sure with your positive attitude you can make sure that your move is one that makes this year great x