For many people I know, happy in their relationships and successful in their work, there is the overriding characteristic that when they were growing up they have been able to gain a sense of who they are and what interests them.
As a result they have been able, over time, to develop a clear sense of direction in life and a feeling of control over where they wanted their lives to go. Despite knocks along the way and the occasional U-turn, they have generally got to where they want to go.
For the rest of us, for whatever reason, that just hasn’t happened and no sense of who we are or what we are about has been able to develop. Thankfully, for me, there is also the sense that it is never too late to start trying to work out the sort of path I want to go down and where I want to find myself, and IJ, in the years to come.
Which is the situation I find myself in now, a few years short of my fortieth birthday. As the end of my marketing course is finally in sight I am left wondering, with some apprehension, where I go from here.
So there are some important decisions to be made over the next year or so about where to live and the sort of career path I want to establish for myself. There are also, very importantly, the needs of a seven-year-old child to consider.
If feels overwhelming and incredibly stressful at times, but there is also excitement at the fact that I can choose my own path and be the me I want to be. There is also the sense, thankfully, that the right decision, for us, will eventually be made, but that it will take a little time.
In the comment section of a recent post, where it felt as if I was making these important decision too late in life and living with too many regrets, Iota reminded me not to think: What if? But to think: What now?
Nothing could have proved more motivating. There is a sense, finally, that life is moving forward.
At last.
I'm pleased that things are looking more positive for the future, and that things are starting to fall into place for you. I think Iota is right - nobody makes the rules in your life except you, so do what you want to do.
I thought you might be interested to know that I only changed career in my early 40s when I started working in education and then went on to begin teacher training - and you're only a young whippersnapper so just thing how much you can achieve! Good luck x
Posted by: notsupermum | November 20, 2010 at 04:41 PM
Thanks notsupermum. I think it takes a certain degree of confidence to make your own decisions in life and I have that now so plab to use it! I noticed you had reviewed some toys with your students and assumed you had always worked in education. How interesting that you have changed career paths too. It's not just me. I like the words 'young whippersnapper' by the way! x
Posted by: Rosie Scribble | November 20, 2010 at 04:46 PM
Try and hold onto that sense of excitement - hopefully if you are in the right place it will stay around most of the time, if you start to lose it then you need to work out what is diluting it and pushing you off track
What now is a great way to live life!
Posted by: Muddling Along | November 22, 2010 at 04:33 PM
Muddling Along, what an insightful comment. I think listening to too much negativity is what dilutes it and believing it all. I'm going to work hard at tuning it all out. So far so good. x
Posted by: Rosie Scribble | November 22, 2010 at 04:37 PM