The song I love but can't listen to, yet

Angels & Urchins have tagged me in the Stories and Songs meme that is circulating the blogosphere at the moment. It started over at Brits in Bosnia's blog who says:

What I'm after is a song that reminds you of something, that has a story for you. Not necessarily your favourite song or a even a song that you love, but a song that instantly takes you back to that time and place.

Well, I promised Tara and Pippad no more emotional posts for a while, but then I read the details of the meme and I cried. I didn't need to think twice about my choice of song, in fact it was playing on the radio the other day and I cried then and switched it off. I couldn't listen to it.

The song is You're still the One by Shania Twain and it reminds me of IJ.

It was the song that was playing when she was born.

It reminds me of my incredible love for her, a love that has grown over the years and continues to do so.

It reminds of the panic I felt initially when IJ was born unresponsive. Of course she pulled through but it was an anxious few minutes waiting to find out if she was okay.

And it reminds me that when IJ was born, no member of my family was present.

And these lines ring so true:

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

So you'll understand that it's a song that provokes too many emotions to list here. I can't listen to the song yet, six years on.

One day I will and when I do, I'll be holding my beautiful daughter very close and very tightly and she'll probably tell me to pull myself together and stop behaving like an idiot!

But I'll still be telling her I love her.

I'm supposed to tag people, feel free to have a go if you'd like to.

Comments

[Pippa]

Now you have me crying again. I shall always listen to that song in a different way from now on. Hugs to you too.

[Dawn]

That is a lovely blog post and I can imagine how hard it was to write it. I don't think I could even attempt to write my favourite song. I don't think Home Insurance covers water damage from tears does it?

[Tara@Sticky Fingers]

Bloody hellfire Rosie. I don't know if I'll be able to listen to that song again now.
When my son was born I used to sing Elton John's Your Song "I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind, that I wrote down the words, how wonderful life is now you're in the world" and even now I get tearful when hearing it because I was so joyful at being a mother when I didn't think I ever had it in me and how the minute I saw him I regretted waiting so long. And now I'm writing this I have tears in my eyes.
Blimey, I need to stay away from your blog for my sanity's sake ...

[Bumbling]

Beautiful. Sad, but beautiful.

xxx

[Victoria]

Sniff. Lovely post.

[nappyvalleygirl]

Lovely.

And I love the song, too.

[MissSearles]

*Petition to ban Rosie from doing any emotional posts from now on...*
1.MissSearles

Lovely post, lovely song, lovely memories
xx

[Heather]

her words will probably be 'ger'off mum, you're embarrassing me!'

Got rather choked up there for a bit. Lovely post.

[Perfectly Happy Mum]

Oh no! My mascara is all smudged now! That's a beautiful song for a beautiful story x

[Crystal Jigsaw]

That's a lovely song and very poignant words. God Bless xx

[Emily Vest]

Sniff, gulp, watery eyes.

You lot are making me feel emotionally rubbish! You have such lovely, heart stoppingly, eye wateringly lovely stories behind your songs which conjure up really emotional times in your lives. My song is all about when I couldn't get a nice enough cup of coffee. Starting to worry about myself now!

Thanks for taking on the meme. x

[Family Affairs]

I love that song Lx

[Josie @Sleep is for the Weak]

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Rosie. I will always think of you and your girl now when I hear that song xx

[Muddling Along Mummy]

Oh Rosie that's beautiful - will be thinking of you now when I hear that song !

[Geekymummy]

I love the song. What a great one to come into the world to. Whatever the future holds you will Keep holding on to each other.

[Tanya (Bump2Basics)]

Geez, I am 41 weeks+ pregnant, hormonal and this post did me in, sniff sniff. I also have a couple of songs that touch an emotional chord and make me well up when I hear them...this song clearly conjures an overwhelming but beautiful memory for you.

[Metropolitan Mum]

Now it is me who is crying !!! Xxx MM

[Jo Beaufoix]

Awwww Rosie. I've been avoiding this all day because I had a feeling you'd make me cry hon. BUt you know actually, you made me feel very proud. Love you loads.

[Tim (aka The Dotterel)]

What a post, Rosie! I don't actually know that song (don't know where I've been) but now, when I hear it, I've got a story to remember too.

[angelsandurchinsblog]

Please don't petition Rosie against writing emotional blog posts, they always have such wonderful stories behind them! Eyes welling over, so apologies if start zillions of typos. I hope you do get to listen to the song together one day, I'm sure it will become a song with resonance for her too. Full on blub; I can quite see why the lyrics mean so much. I can't listen to George Harrison's Here Comes the Sun, because all I hear is 'son' - and (OK, really can't see now) being unable to believe that I finally had one because it had been a lot longer than a 'Long cold lonely winter' to get him there. Aren't we all lucky mums? Thanks again, Rosie, and gawd, now my nose is running too.