The goal -- to return to work full time within two years. The dilemma -- what to do, specifically, and what skills I need to gain in the meantime now that the world has gone digital yet my qualifications were gained pre-internet.
After a positive week which involved emerging from behind the computer screen (where the majority of my day is spent editing Word documents, writing web content and generally cursing all things Microsoft), and meeting a fabulous group of bloggers, I am more motivated and determined than ever, and my focus is now on work.
However, my drive and determination is slowly turning into stress and frustration as I've realised that my skills are outdated, the world has moved on and gone digital and, to an extent, I have been left behind. I have a great deal of catching up to do.
I also want to achieve everything now which of course is not possible, yet I am impatient and want to make up for lost time.
I'm half way through a marketing course which I'll complete by the end of the year. Aware that the business degree I gained in the 1990s needed updating, I chose an area that particularly interested me. However, marketing is too general; I need to specialise further.
So the dilemma is where to go now considering that so much these days is online rather than off. There are numerous areas that interest me -- marketing communications, journalism, writing, editing, copywriting, PR, social media ... but my concern is that time is not on my side. I turn 37 next week. There is so much that I need to learn; I am unsure where to start.
My week has been spent looking at various courses, considering childcare options and weighing up finances. There is so much information out there to help me develop some sense of direction, possibly too much. And now I'm wondering if I now need a Mac.
I think my head may explode.
So the idea of returning to full-time work now that IJ is approaching an age when she relies on me less is very exciting, it is also very overwhelming and the world of work I once knew no longer exists.
We are off tomorrow to the press day at Drayton Manor where I may be found swinging from the monkey bars talking rather incoherently about search engine optimisation, website design and target markets.
If, by then, I have not gone completely mad!